Day 4: Suddenly I stop smoking, and prior to quitting I really felt like one of the few and the brave (well in Utah that is how you feel). Now every freakin person I see is smoking, every car stopped at a light has the window cracked and smoke billowing out. In the grocery store parking lot, I see you standing there smoking away. Where were you last week, maybe I would of stuck with it, if only I felt the camaraderie before now. I'm kidding of course, I don't want to join you.
Today was good overall, but as I told M last night this is like a break up, I'm just waiting for the day when it doesn't consume my thoughts. When I go through an entire day and don't think of a cigarette, when I go take the dogs out and its not painful because I'm standing in the cold without a cigarette, when I walk into 7-11 and don't consider buying a pack. As it happens with a lost love, one day you lay your head on the pillow and realize they haven't crossed your mind in ages, that's what I am waiting for. If I'm honest the thoughts aren't consuming, they aren't bad at all, I can make it. :)
Excellent! BTW, all those other people you see don't give a crap about ever getting my age where you either rejoice that you are healthy or cuss yourself for doing damage that you didn't care about at the time. Yes, I remember when it totally consumed my mind too. Remember this phase because once you are past it you don't ever have to repeat it!!
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