Day 30: Bless me friends as it has been thirty days since my last cigarette, since then I have acquired other sins. Gluttony for one, all I do is cook and eat. Since I still can't feel my toes and calf I can't exercise to help counteract all the badness from the really good food. Vanity or Pride is another one, I look in the mirror all the time, trying to see how fat the fat rolls look in a certain shirt or pants. Sloth, originally known as acedia, which meant, "the neglect to take care of something one should do", still having GI issues (no I didn't try anything anyone suggested), I did try my medication that the GI doc prescribed awhile ago, and then I realized why I stopped taking it and now I just can't be bothered. Wrath, I think I have perfected this sin over the years, and dealing with the doctors and insurance lately, it really is hard to keep at bay. Envy, I'm envious of people who can feel their foot. So what's left, greed and lust. I don't think I will be able to add these to my list, for the most part I am the opposite of greed, I will give away anything, working appliances, new furniture, even a car, of course all to M's shaking head, if you want a good deal go to one of my yard sales, that's all I'm saying. It's not that I'm particularly generous, I just hate clutter, so having to keep something around until someone might buy it, drives me batty. Lastly, lust this is the one M probably wouldn't shake his head if I acquired a little of, who knows he may get lucky in a few months when I turn the big 40. (That my friends is indeed a double entendre. )
The priest would give me some prayers to say after that confession but I'm pretty sure I can get rid of at least three sins if I had a cigarette, but glad to say I don't have the desire. The thought is there once in a while, especially looking in the mirror. I'm thinking of investing in a fun house mirror, I just have to make sure I get the right one, otherwise the results could be disastrous.
Ah, I am proud of you!! Sins can be forgiven but the damage smoking does to you cannot. So I guess the BMF isn't working for you, eh? What is the prognosis for the back - surgery? Can you walk OK? I hope you can because that will be helpful in getting you past this. BTW, 40 is NOTHING, I'm going to be 56! That my friend is a "Holy Crap" moment!
ReplyDeleteThank you, I haven't been to neurologist yet, my appt is Monday, I am hoping no surgery, and I'm not interested in steroid injections, so I am hoping for some alternative treatment. I walk the dogs but because there is no feeling in my foot and leg my ankle folds, I can only go maybe .5 miles. I did go to gym yesterday and do elliptical which worked because i don't have to lift my foot, but I can't go hard so not sure it was worth it. The BMF worked great, I had lost three pounds the first week, until I couldn't work out, I know I could still watch my calories but I'd just rather eat and not care right now :) I had actually taken it off last week, I just put it back on yesterday, but haven't started tracking calories yet, I will though.
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