Day 2 is such a mind game.

Day 2 and no cigarette, I would say yahoo but honestly I'm not confident that it will continue.  Addiction?, not a physical one, I'm not vomiting, shaking, or even profusely sweating, now if we can all agree that screaming at my kids is a sign of a physical addiction then damn it, I'm addicted!  Seriously, most smokers know there is no serious physical addiction, we don't wake up in the middle of the night dying for a smoke, we manage well enough on long airplane rides but the psychological addiction, well that is another story.
I just said we never wake up to smoke, but sure enough last night I must of woke up at least four times thinking about a cigarette.  To be exact the thought was: when I wake up I will not have any cigarettes to smoke with my coffee.  Seriously, it was like a chant to ensure my early morning depression.  Needless to say, I did not have a cup of coffee this morning, it just felt like it might be too much to handle.  I smoke outside, but even inside my hands seem idle, so I'm compensating by eating.  Today's menu has consisted of :
Onion bagel with cream cheese and bacon
1 bowl of coco puffs
Ice cream
1 piece of white bread
2 Little Debbie Cocoa Cremes
Diet Coke
Okay, honestly that is my normal diet, I don't like veggies, not particularly fond of fruit, I like sweets I am hoping with the BMF I ordered I will cut some of the sugars.  Also, I had tried to eliminate the diet coke today, that lasted until about 12:30, one thing at a time I think.  Now I'm gonna have a glass of Fat Bastards Chardonnay .... Here's to not smoking!